My daughter (Jessi) got all four of her wisdom teeth taken out Thursday. She is having a hard time with it. Her face swelled up, and she is in pain. We were hoping by now she would be better as she starts college tomorrow. Her pain is getting a lot better but she wants the swelling to go down. Her oral surgeon said it can last for several days. We didn't have a choice to get them taken out. They were impacted and causing her a lot of pain.

Anyway, that's my post for the day. Have to go to her college this afternoon for family day for the day before the kids start.  Jessi said she is going to go no matter how she feels so we shall see. She hasn't woken up yet so I am hoping a lot of her swelling went down during the night.

Back again and going down the lonely road

Okay - I am back to posting after what, years?  I am now 49 years old and my daughter is 18 and starting her first year of college in 2 weeks. I will have to rename this blog to the 50's life real soon.

I am having a very hard time with my youngest growing up. We are so so so close and thankfully she is staying home for now, as her college is only a 20 minute drive. She may end up changing her mind later on but for now.....

She is majoring in biology and concentrating on zoology. She is a huge animal lover and that is not even getting close to it. She will do amazing in whatever she goes into after college. She graduated from high school with a 3.9 GPA and is an amazing young lady. She went through her school years without getting into trouble one time. Isn't that amazing??  I know she is not perfect, but still I could not ask for a better child.

 I work at home still thankfully. I am a freelance writer who works a lot of hours but well worth it. Now that my daughter is hardly ever home, my husband working, and my other two kids out on their own, I am finding myself more alone than ever.  I am a shy person who does not make friends easily. I moved to TN when I was 20 from Illinois, which is where I grew up. It is much harder to make friends when you become an adult. Now that I am alone I need to make some but how?  I will have to figure this out, or I will be by myself more than ever. Well, that is it for today. I am so sorry that I stopped blogging but I will keep up with this blog a lot from now on. If any of you have children in college please let me know how you handled it.

It's Been Awhile

I quit blogging and I don't even know why. I actually love to do it and we should always do what makes us happy, right? I saw the last post was from 2009 and now it is 2012 so I am starting this blog up again. I have many blogs listed that I started and never continued with. Why is that? What makes us start something and then just leave it even though we love to do it? Maybe it is my age and not having as much energy. I am 46 years old and that is by no  means old but I don't have the energy that I had in my 20's. I plan on talking about some very controversial things on this blog, as well as some fun things, recipes, books I've read, etc. I want this blog to be about women and how we feel about things in this crazy world today. It is crazy,  isn't it? My husband is back at work finally after being laid off for 2 years. Things are finally starting to get back to normal around here. It was some hard times but we made it and God had a lot to do with that. Actually, He probably had everything to do with that. Without Him I seriously don't think we would have made it. My husband is back to making the same income he made at his old job and we have wonderful insurance. I've been through quite a lot over the past 3 years since I quit blogging on here, as I know many people have.

My son, who is now 20 years old, went though a time when he thought smoking pot was okay. Smoking pot did nothing but put him in jail 3 different times. The last time he spent the longest time there and something changed in him. He is now working full-time and eating normal again. I actually have my son back. He now tells me that he did much more than smoke pot, and actually took Ecstasy pills. No Crack or Cocaine or any of that stuff but wow what a horrible time in this household during that year. 

My daughter, Jessi, is now 15 and just received her learner's permit. We are driving every afternoon in my quiet neighborhood. I am going to let her practice every single day until I feel she is ready to venture out onto the main roads. She is actually doing very good for someone that has never driven very much. She is doing great in high school and has a 3.7 GPA right now. She is so smart and such a happy child. I could not ask for more. 

Well, I can't catch you guys up on everything all at once. You will get it in bits and pieces at a time. So  here I go on this blog again. Let's see if I can keep it going this time. 

I Never Thought It Would Be Like This

I love my husband and kids.  I consider myself a great mother and that is one thing I will brag about  I am proud of myself and I should be.  I'm not trying to sound "prideful", I'm really not.  Something happened that made me think that maybe I'm not as good as a mother as I thought I was.  Two weeks ago my husband and two kids went out of town.  I stayed home as I had to work.  I had 2 days to myself and I missed them but it was wonderful.  I was cleaning my daughter's bedroom and noticed some empty water bottles under her bed so I pulled them out.  Along with them came a notebook that was open and I saw the words "my mom drives me crazy".  Of course I had to read it.  I couldn't stop myself.  I wish I hadn't.  She had written she didn't love me, wished my husband and I would get a divorce and I would leave.  I could not believe it!  Granted she is very close to her father and the definition of daddy's girl.  We are so different.  She is a tomboy, into sports, etc.  I was what you call a "girly girl", more into clothes, etc.   We've never been close since she's gotten a little older.  I cried that entire night then I got angry.  How dare she?  I have done so much for her, sacrificed so much to make her happy and she feels like this?  I thought and thought of what I could do differently and know what I found out?  Nothing.  There is not one thing I would change about myself to make her happier.  I don't need to!  She is a good girl, never back talks, has never been disrespectful to us.  I have never raised my voice to her.  I just can't figure it out.  Maybe she was mad at me that day or something but she actually wrote "I hate her".  Hate is a very strong word and I never once even thought I hated my mother.  Sure I got mad at her and maybe at times didn't like her very much but I never hated her.  This is really bothering me.  She is acting better towards me now and I don't know why.  I'm not doing anything different.  I asked my 17-year-old son if he thought I was a good mother and he said I was the best.  He has always said he's like to have two good parents as some of his friends don't.  Anyone out there have any advice?  Anything like this happen to you?  

What are we doing????

Okay, I have to vent.  I work at home and did tech support for Tier3Support.  They contracted with Rosetta Stone Language Learning and we took their support calls.  Well as of 3 weeks ago I no longer have a job.  They decided to drop our contract and all of their support calls now go to India.  So...I have another work at home job now that I love (cannot talk about it) but it is with BzzAgent.  For Rosetta Stone to take work away from Americans and send it to India - well, I can't even say what I want to.  I would never buy their software or support this company in any way whatsoever if I were you.  Okay - I'm done.  God is good though - I got the job with BzzAgent the same week I lost my job with Tier3support and I love it so much more!!!  God closes a door and a window opens - looking back on my life I see that has happened a lot.    I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend.  Sunny and 75 here in Tennessee today but rain tomorrow.  Oh well, April showers bring May flowers.

Twilight Frenzy

Okay - I read the books and like most people absolutely loved them.  My daughter is 12 and she and her friends are obsessed with Edward.  I would be too if I was 12 - lol.  My daughter has read this series 3 times.  I took her and 3 of her friends to the movie when it first came out and later my daughter and I went by ourselves.  Good movie but the book is better (as is in most cases).  Don't know if you know this but the DVD came out on Saturday at 12:01 midnight.  Our local Walmart was having a Twilight party starting at 11:00 to last up until the DVDs were brought out.  I took my daughter and her best friend and we got there at 10:30.  I knew you would be able to find this DVD anywhere the next day but it was fun for them and made it all that much more exciting.  Finally 12:01 arrived and the DVD's were brought out and you would not believe these people!  They already said they had 1,000 DVDs and there were not near that many people there.  A lady about 3 times my size pushed me and almost knocked me down.  Luckily we made it out of there alive!  We got home at 1:00 a.m. - I went to bed and my daughter and her friend stayed up most of the night watching the movie.   Anyone a Twilight fan????

Shocked

Okay - I was way wrong.  Alexis Grace???  Give me a break!  She is a much better singer than Scott.  What is America thinking?  Oh well, my 2 guys are still in the running (Danny and Kris) so we will see what happens next week.

I am a day late posting this but busy, busy, busy as I am sure everyone can understand that!

Hope everyone has a great Friday.

Rita